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trust30 project: day 12

June 22, 2011
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day 12

     Hmm… I used to be an avid journal-keeper.  That was my form of introspection, I needed to go through my thoughts there to confirm that what I was doing was okay, that it was in accordance with the plan I’d created for myself.  But eventually, it started to seem like I was spending more time writing and analyzing than actually living.  I’ve come to terms with the fact that I’m not an overly spontaneous person, but to go back over everything that I’ve done and wonder if I could have done it differently and what would have happened if I had… There’s just no point.

     I think I looked back at the past because there’s no way to look forward into the future.  And that thought, the idea that I won’t really know what’s going to happen until it does, that’s the thing that I’ve been fearing.  And it’s something that is absolutely not worth fearing, because all I can do is to try to move my life in the direction I want it to go.  I can’t control the rest of the world.  All I can do is to set myself up for the future I want, and… that’s what I’m doing.

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  1. June 23, 2011 12:51 am

    Julie, think about this analogy; if we felt the same way about driving a car, we would never go out at night. We set a destination and head off in that direction but we can never see beyond the range of our headlights. We just trust that we’re heading where we want and that a road lies beyond the beams.

    We alos have to trust and believe that we are safe as we have zero control over other drivers and the condition of the road. We set out anyway.

    Seems about right!
    Rich

    • JulieRoseSews permalink*
      June 23, 2011 3:00 am

      very, very true…I guess to a certain degree we’re all just crossing our fingers and hoping for the best. thanks for the comment, Rich, your input is always interesting!

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